Friday, September 12, 2008
One week of prelims is finally over.
7 papers down, 5 more to go.
However, i think i've screwed almost all 7 papers.
I wish i've got better things to blog about.
But..sighs.
No idea what's happening to me.
Out of 5 days, i was practically having diarheoa for 3 days.
And for the remaining 2 days, one of which was ruined by a crazy sudden dizzy spell.
SO WHAT'S NEW?!
Sometimes..im simply sick and frustrated of myself...
Guess people around me are all too sick of hearing me having the same old problems again and again...
Many may even think im simply faking them.
Excuses and all for not doing well for exams, tests or that im actually trying to attract attention?
Oh wells. seriously..i dont know.
Perhaps my body is rejecting the exams.
Or simply it may just be like what you've all said..
It's all from the mind.
A coward you'll call me probably.
Oh wells.
But do you think i wanted all these too?
Never a time i've felt so so inconfident of myself.
Never once like this before.
The worse thing came when my mum caught me crying in my room.
She questioned if all this got to do with me going church as i've never ever been lidat for my whole life as a student before and she said..
' I think you should simply put a stop to all this and stop going to church..'
My heart sank.
I cant help but to wonder again.
What's God's plan for me actually?
Or even.....
Does He actually has one for me?
Or probably He's forgotten me.
I dont know.
Seriously i dont.
My life as a christian has changed.
I hope it's for the better.
It's undeniable that God is good and that He too has made many many many impacts/miracles to my life.
But somehow...
I've been feeling bitterness and so insecured all these years...
And perhaps im not progressing anywhere.
Probably its really the time for me to let go?
O' God.
Tell me..what shall i do?
Im stranded in this situation and im feeling so so helpless.
56 days to A levels.
But im feeling so unprepared..so inconfident & uncertain of even myself.
What lies ahead me?
I DONT KNOW.
Perhaps i'll really explode and go berserk soon.
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Tuesday, September 09, 2008
We bow our hearts
We bend our knees
Oh Spirit come make us humble
We turn our eyes from evil things
Oh Lord we cast down our idols
Give us clean hands
Give us pure hearts
Let us not lift our souls to another
Oh God let us be
The generation that seeks
Who seeks your face
Oh God of Jacob
Everyday's an experience.
Lessons to learn.
Bitter, sweet or sour.
But be glad that He's always there to accompany us through.
Thank you Lord (:
O' Lord...throughout the prelims period as we bury our heads under piles and piles of notes..
I pray that You'll be there and grant us wisdom to understand them.
I pray that You'll send angels to each and everyone of us in the examinations hall.
Give us energy, strength and wisdom to finish the papers.
And that we do not forget our quiet amidst these busy days as well.
In the name of Jesus i pray, amen.
Not easy.
Really not to survive this world.
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Monday, September 08, 2008
Hi stomach.
You created trouble again today.
I hope you'll be fine for the next few days.
You created trouble again today.
I hope you'll be fine for the next few days.
Jia you!
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