er im here again to blog...jus read gv's blog...i shld sae the truth....er....kinda i didnt mean to be kinda speakin chn all the tym....o well wad m i tokin...im makin everything sound rong.......
kk i was speakin chn all the way even when im not even in cedar gals...n i bet every1 hu noes me shld noe i alwaes speak chn cuz im totalli used to it....speakin chn at hme too...i didnt mean to alwaes speak chn in sectionals...or even i did make a pt to speak eng...but sumtyms or i shld sae i alwaes forget...n cuz my eng totalli sux so i seldom speak it...n even b4 url join...i mean last last yr...we were all speakin chn too...o well...its jus tad diff. i dun mean u mus learn chn...but tads me......n im alwaes lidat.........i noe its onli me speakin chn all the tym....but actualli.....haiz i dunno how to put it in place.....o well...n even durin eng class i was kinda fined $2.50 4 the yr for speakin too much chn??but aniwae...i was kinda makin a simple remark on tad dae........n tads jus kinda naturally??haiz...i dunno how to explain n wadeva....ok i noe its my fault again....n shang yu is tryin to blame it on me?even when she said so mani i didnt mean to scold u....kinda readin the sentences alreadi noe its on me again....to speak the truth im kinda offended....cuz tad was totalli out of mouth widout even thinkin.....n was like habin bein blamed 4 speakin chn....was kinda...haiz...theres jus too mani probs.............n tad will nvr be solved....i guess....there will alwaes be agap in bet. THERES JUS SO MANI THINGS TO SAE WHICH I CANT SPELL IT OUT.........HAIZ





eh...jus read sumbody's blog...i dunno why i think its jus so fake...tryin to get sympathy yea?sumtyms i jus think tad person so act leh....i dunno y...mayb jus got this bad impression of tad person??becuz of trival matters n den shed tears??o well...mayb i shld transfer my frenster profile here...
jus bored n so takin sum quizzes...
the studious student. You are definitely pressured and suffer from side effects from built up stress. You are constantly occupying yourself with books, studies, or some other hobby. You feel squeezed in place and have litte movement. Most of the time you are busy with work and family, and would love to spread your wings and relax. One like you needs to find a certain time of the day to just sit and release the tension. However, you are doing fairly well in school, but that does not mean that you can continue stressing yourself out. Take a breather and head out with some friends.
You can consider going into a field like librarian, polotician, journalist, Archeologist, scientist, or lawyer. You have a brain...NOW USE IT....but please...spare yourself the pressure and create some down time for yourself. Or develop a hobby that releases tension, such as knitting (it worked wonders for me)
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Your inner soul is content with the way it is. In general you are a very sweet, caring person! You love to kick back and hang out with your friends, but you also enjoy time by yourself to read a book and catch up on your studies. You love the wildlife and you can always seem to make the day better. Your lover is the luckiest man in the world because people like you are rare to come across. You love life but always still have your head in reality.
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You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy at times but friendly, and you are never weak and always independent. You are incredibly intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a talent for many things (sports, music, art). You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy the simple things. Like hanging out with friends and watching movies at home. But you're sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just can't seem to break into the crowd and be noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing and speak out when you have more to say. Don't hide behind your books and sports and computer, get out there and get noticed. You also have deep desires in life and feel vunerable and alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What helps me to express feelings and dreams that I can't say to people, is through my writting. Maybe you should try.
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was ought to be a fine dae 4 me.... i studied chinese till 3am in the morning... i tot it will be a good dae for me... but apparently its not......... i hate todae.... i hate it to core......... theres jus so mani reasons to it... tad piles up to my load....... n im jus fallin down afta every load....... or even im alreadi rite deep inside......... n is jus left to die....... the onli choice to end the misery is none other den..... sucidal... for todae i had more slashes...on my wrists... i hate those ppl hu made my life miserable....especially.... tad idiotic fat arse hole!!!!!!!!none other den my fat ass dad.... u beta die far awae.... if not im goin to tear u up in thousand pieces.... n u will nvr be in peace!!!! goin to sch wid a tired mind.... unfortunateli caught by teacher 4 slpin... i didnt mean to.....i swear tis was my 1st tym.... i was reali tired...worn out by many things.... went for joggin as usual.......i shouted my lungs out......... tryin to avoid being sad todae.... the cheerful me is jus a fake cover outside me....... im realli broken......... went to band.... didnt wan to show ani of my personal probs.... but jus showed it in the senseless way... dun ask me y i luff dun ask me y i cry..... cuz i dun even noe it myself....or even im a living corpse....a zombie...... i hate this world....i hate it........... music makes me happy....plaein clarinet blows away my sadness....... but it can jus take awae so little...tad will nvr cover the big wound........ theres jus so much probs to trouble abt......im tired....very tired... sum1 help me............. evry word every tear....pls wash awae my misery...... was suppose to be a happy dae...cuz todae was the last dae to tests 4 the wk...... but totalli wasnt.... had my dinner earli way b4 he reach hme... jus wanted to drink some soup.... didnt had it jus now... u dun like me in the rm.... fine i go down watch tv...1hr... relax den wanted to do hw.... sis cam back... went out to eat.... mirki bark..... but soon was quiet.... den afta show he came down........ in an absolutely idiotic manner.. hes a dictator... under his grasp.......... im goin to suffocate......... mirki bark again when he came down....he blamed me 4 not bringing her to toilet... the prob isnt tad... he jus came down call me go close door let her walk.... i was jus abt to stand up... when he started scolding again.... sae me lazy or wadeva..........was kinda restin...cant i even hab my rest tym??? i alreadi came down jus to avoid u...y r u still afta me??? fine i go close door... jus as i walked up the stairs.........he sae y nvr bring her to toilet again... den i was like saein when u haben come down she was perfectly fine.....which was true......... den he scolded me again...........wadeva..........sae wad i bookworm...idiot all sorts of things... i had enuff.......n even wanting to beat me??? wad mistakes did i do??? is layin down in ur own hse living rm a crime??? jus becuz u hab difficulties in ur job doesnt gib u the power to scold us.... we r humans too... u dun like ppl scoldin u... den dun do it to me!!! im not ur puppet!!!! dun drive me the way u wan... im a human i got my way of thinkin n feelins too!!!!!!!!!!!! the stress 4 the past few daes tests is alreadi drivin me crazy n u?? instead of helpin.....ur jus addin on to my load.....drivin me to the wall........................ so wad if u earn the most in the world........u hab tad bad attitude............ so wad if ur sucessful in ur job........widout a proper attitude..........u still failed as a person... a human being..........I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4 this entry i cried again.......y m i landin in this state?? y shld i be here??? i suddenli got the urge to end it rite here........ the slashes are deeper...
EVEN IF U EARN THE WHOLE WORLD'S MONEY... EVEN UR THE RICHEST PERSON.... U STILL FAILED AS A PERSON... CUZ U JUS GOT SUM ROTTEN ATTITUDE....... MAYBE ONLI TILL THE DAE I DIE..WILL DEN BE NO MORE SUFFERINGS............

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