Awww those sickening ulcers are killing me. =((((((((
Useless medicine man...
Plus the pile of work coming up..
I've been so very easily irritated, messed up, vanquished, stressed up, frustrated for the whole of this week.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

And i finally chiong till weekends.
Gotta try to catch up man.
And gonna take care of myself and stop getting MCs before i end up failing everything.

Oh wells, im so gonna have to mug for this weekends.
Or i continue to be dead the next week.
LIMITED time + UNLIMITED tasks = SCARCITY.
MADNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I wished my pea-sized brain could digest everything being taught. So that i wont be so pissed off with myself. =(((((((((((

Hahs. I got all my grades today.

I PASSED OVERALL miraculously.

Phew. I thought i would fail terribly.

Considering the fact that most of the subjects i only did study them the day before the exams.

And cause my grades are.....oh wells... =))

But i guess everyone did as bad. hahs.

Hmm...but that's not the reason for me to not do well anyway.

Gotta really work hard man.

Heard that there's this award for those who improve alot from JCTs to promos within each class.

Hahs. gotta work towards it!!!!!

Nothing is impossible with GOD!!! =)))

Anyway, today during econs lecture, they announced how well each class did for econs..comparing the class's avg L1R5 and the econ's scores for each class.

I didnt know my class will be so low for the L1R5 ranking man.

HAHS. we are the bottom two classes in terms of L1R5..

BUT!!!!!this means we have more rooms for improvement..

And oh wells we really did 'value add' esp for our econs.

we were ranked no. 12 and is the 2nd class for the MOST value-addedness.

hahs. But we didnt exactly do very well...(mostly Es in our class.)

Anyway, im still stunned by the fact that we are the 3rd for GP.

Cause during the previous class essay practice, our essays were horrible.

Especially for me who only got 16/50.

But i still wasnt the last in class.

Im even more amazed by the fact that my GP is the highest among all my other subjects and the fact that im at the 86th percentile for GP.

But i guess it's God who helped me this time round.

And i do suppose He was by my side when i wrote my essay cause my thoughts just seems to flow properly and in place. =)))[cuz during the essay practice, it was like every sentence i wrote, i'd pause to think over and over again..]

But anyway, i guess that's because everyone did as bad and im just a little better. =))))))))))

And ya here are my 'beautiful' grades.

General Paper 53.3 D [highest is C 60 i suppose]

Maths 35.7 S

Physics 38.5 S

Chem 32.3 U

Econs 41.9 E

HAHS. faints.

Okays gotta go back to my tutorials!!!

Eeewwwww my ulcers are getting bigger and are super painful.

The doctor's ulcer medicine doesnt work at all man.

Was irritated by the ulcers the whole day.

Didnt even want to talk today.

hahs. shoo ulcers shooooooo faster get smaller. =/

Oh wells, today civics we're suppose to play this '1st impression' game.

We were supposed to write something abt eveyone on this piece of card on everyone's back

Hahs. guess wad i've got.

Dao but nice.

Loud.(alot of it)LOL.

Sheepish.

Sheep.

Mehmeh.

Oh wells. what's with the sheep and mehmeh-ing stuffs.

Haiz..lol.

today had wushu prac but couldn't go for it again.

Gonna wait until next week.

Wells, the dried skin on my wound fell off le..

And i guess the whole wound shrank. =))))))))))))))))))

Wells, i must say i miss pe and trainings.

And i guess i cant stretch already after so long not stretching during trainings. hahs.

Got to go do chem and maths tutorials le..haiz sian..

Didnt go to school today.

Cause the vein on my right hand just simply popped up and was super painful when i woke up this morning.

Although it has actually been painful eversince i discharged from the hospital, today morning was much more painful.

I could actually see the vein from my wrist there all the way to near my elbow joint there.

Oh wells, i guess i gonna get doctor-phobia already.

It's like this is the dunno how many times i've visited a doctor just within a few weeks.

The doctor says it should be some infection due to bacteria and she gave me anti-biotics.

Just went blog hopping cuz i was bored.

Hahs..saw brendon's blog and realised many ppl are actually praying for me to carry on this journey and be strong.

Thanks people!!!! I really apreciate all your prayers.

Im okay already!!! and i guess the wound is smaller now...hahs.

Hahs. i bought the 1st pack when collecting medicine for giddiness today!!! Then after going out of the polyclinic, i asked mum if i can buy another pack. And she agreed. =))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
IMMA CANDY SIAO!

yaye! smaller le!!!!hahs. Maybe it just looks smaller. But anyways, stitches removed!!!!!!!

HAHS.

My stitches were removed today!!!

LALALALA.

But after having them on for so long, kinda 'have some feelings' for the stitches.

Kinda felt quite weird after removing them.

OH wells, dont bother sp is crapping.

Anyway, i was still super worried if the removal of stitches will be as painful as how they stitch it on.

And i was still thinking they gonna inject some anesthetic into my head again.

Hahs. foolish me.

It's just cutting the thread and pulling them out of the wound.

Sounds like it's quite painful hurh..

Hahs. but it's not really so.

It was again the grouchy and violent nurse who did my STO(medical term for removal of stitches?i guess so. hahs. that's wad the docs call it.)

When i saw her,

im like UH OH@!!!!!!

hahs! But AMAZINGLY, she wasn't grouchy and violent today but was kinda nice?!?!( perhaps last dressing it, she was having the time of the month. hahs.)

Oh wells, but i dont deny she is sure definitely skilful cuz of her experience i suppose.

Her actions were fast and in no time my stitches were removed.

The middle 2 stitches were a little painful though cuz i guess the thread got stuck to my skin??

Hahs, but it's just like the slight pain when they injected onto my head.

Oh wells................................all in all,

IM DONE WITH THE STITCHES.

Now shall just make sure i take good care of it and minimise the scar!!!hahs.

Anyways, the doc gave me mc to excuse me for pe for the whole week cuz my mum insisted.

The doc says it's actually okay to do pe..then she said if u're afraid of straining ur wound, then rest for 2 days.

Oh wells, mum insisted for the whole week.

This means i cant go for wushu practices!!!!awwwwww.

But i'll persuade her!!hahs.

i guess she's worried la.

I mean she hasn't stop worrying since this incident happened.

Oh wells.

AND.. guess wad?!?! i realised the only subject that i really did pass and not sub pass is MIRACULOUSLY GENERAL PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply cant believe it man.

It's the subject i've least confidence in(after getting all As for other subjects but spoilt by the c5 for english for the o lvls cuz i simply screwed my essay.hahs.]

Hahs. But really gotta work hard for JCTs which is like in 2 months?!?!?!

AWW.

Okays gtg to do chem tutorial.

Brendon asked me the qn yesterday: How desperate am i???

He told me i could actually call one of those who have free incoming and listen to the sermon this morning.

I thought about it but didnt do it in the end.

However, benny sent me a msg on the scripture covered today.

Hebrews 10:23

Then i continued reading on the last few chapters of Hebrews.

However, i dunno why but those scriptures that i've read today under the book of Hebrews,

Either i've been reminded or i've heard about them yesterday or they are all relevant to my current situation.

En talked to me about how trumpet is just like her Issac;

During the band meeting yesterday which consisted of all non-believers, suddenly keep saying about the pieces, Jericho and Praise Jerusaleum.

I realised everything was covered in the book of Hebrews.

And this whole few verses under The Discipline Of God which i thought God was answering my questions when i asked Him why is He so cruel towards me.

And about my authority:

17Obey them that have the rule over you, and submit yourselves: for they watch for your souls, as they that must give account, that they may do it with joy, and not with grief: for that is unprofitable for you.

Oh wells, after all said...

The question is are these things all coincidental?

Or just like what others said, im not back to square but God is watching over all these things now?