iHATEthischristmas!!!!!
sorry to all ppl who celebrated today
supposed to be a happy, joyful 1
but it turned out to be another day
full of crap 4 me

and most of all
the day was spoiled by
the devil of my life.
dad.
hes supposedly shld be my dearest kin
supposedly.

wells no christmas party.
nothing.
AS USUAL i mus say
and of cuz no going to church.
JUS A MORON
fine. stay at home
but wells tad mad cow disease guy
suddenli wanted to go chinatown
mum too
ok as usual i was dragged along
sis went out wid bf
im the suay 1 left
okie going out wid dad was a wrong choice
i bought a pants and a shorts
he was asking if the pants was hipster
[to this bastard even we wear hipster osos canot]
ok then my shorts
he said it was too short?????
wells it was the length of my skirt
going out wid this bastard was a nightmare

wanted to hav dinner wid sis they all at sizzler
call her using tad arse phone
when i callin sis tad bastard gib me a bo cham look
was like dunno where to go makan
den he gib tad face again
wads his ass problem
then ended in maxell hawker instead
thanks to sis and mum
its left wid dad.mum.me to eat at hawker
he drove to the car park
and as usual the carpark was freakin small
decided to stay there and wait 4 ppl to get off
den finalli got this car lot
budden the late comer which is another red toy car
came fighting 4 tad lot wid my dad
wells hes courting death
dad horned him
and we went in
cuz we were there so much earlier than him
wells. tad driver was another stubborn idiot
dad parked in den he gu yi reverse back
jus in front of my dad's car
budden we got off le
wells hes wid his gf abt his twenties
den dad was like saying scared he do sumthing to his car
call me note his no.
i went den
budden of cuz canot go in front to his car
and key in to fone rite
so i hid behind a car and note
den guess wad
tad bastard shouted at me from his car
shouted.
wad wrong do i hab?
freaking bastard
he shouted until a passer by came and kp
wells got back to his car
he asked me wheres his fone
bloody ass i rmbed gibing his fone back
and he was still using in his car to tok
den he gib me tad kinda tone and attitude tad i lost his fone
i was explaining tad i gave him le
den he shouted at me again
say call his fone la
wid tad tone as usual
i was on the verge of bursting again
wells.guess wad he found his fone in his door pocket
he was driving while toking on fone
den jus slotted it in
so wad the fuck is this?!
im getting these freaking stuffs cuz of his own carelessness?
so im wad?jus sum1 he can shout at at his pleasure?!
okie went in wid tad darn black face
didnt tok to him at all
i was walking in front to the hawker centre
mum was liek sayin let him be hes mad again
dun care so much abt him
he probably knew i was angry

sat down
nightmare again
went to order sugar cane
den the boss was saying got 1.50 and 1 dollar de
wad i wan
asked mum den she said 1.50
den got back
he threw his coins out
saying too heavy
den i said 3 dollars
den he say where got write 3 dollars
almost shouting again
i said 2 cups 1.50 each
den he say there write $1 each
i replied him using the wadeva tone
there got 1 and 1.50 de mummy say buy 1.50 de
den he shuted up
this time i realli started crying
when he went away to order food
i alreadi ren the whole day
mum was tehre
i told her i ren heng jiu le
den she told me cry oso go home den cry
here cry when he comes i gonna get scolded again
alright i used tissue to wiped my tears
he came back i didnt faced his face although i suay suay sat beside him
wanted to change place wid mum
but haiz ltr he thought wad and i will get in deep sht again
on tad meal he gib scooping rice for me
[cuz he ordered claypot]
it was so obvious he knows im angry
and he tried to explian abt the sugarcan drink
saying wadeva got add lime and nvr add lime
i waas like saying inside stop ur crap
i hear nth
u think lidat i wun angry?
fat hope

when got home i sat at living's rm sofa and not to his rm
to watch tv wid him
he was asking why dun wan come up watch got aircon
i was murmuring saying cuz upstair got a bastard
u.
hasnt said ani word wid him since returned home
wells now every1 is asleep n im here
slping soon

wells no 1 will ever understand my plight here
sum may even tell me to close up the relationship
by starting the 1st step
i tried but nvr succeeded
perhaps u think im unfillial
scolding my dad all tad
but i believe unless u try to be in my shoes
you'll nvr understand how helpless i am
both my dad and the person i hate most


try being me and u'll understand.<br>

so i realised im nothing but a person u can scold as you like.
or be exact a sandbag.

sp
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