bible study supposedly today
but.....
mum kinda starts to wunder
y i always fri go out le
haiz....
so no bible study 4 me today
why m i always this odd 1
or even this exceptionally special 1???
sum tyms i reali wan to ask
dear lord....
wad things you hab in mind when u
arranged me to be here in this pathetic family?
cuz i dun c a reason to be here
y will other parents accept the fact
tad their child is growing up and hab their own religion beliefs?
y cant my dad be like the other's dad?

sumhow past memories crept back again
the part during pri skul and the part during sec2
both jus b4 my impt exams
perhaps im jus so afraid of losing........
losing sumthings tad i wan to treasure 4ever
afraid of facing the many problems again
the very 1st tym i faced it bravely
overcoming my emotions and get down to study hard
and i succeeeded
but...the 2nd tym it came jus so suddenli again
i fell back and realised im tired.
real tired.
if its gonna happen again.
perhaps i'll jus be a stupid coward and ignore everything


last christmas i gave you my heart
but the very next day u threw it away
this year,
to save me from tears i'll gib it to some1 special


this christmas i hav decided to keep it jus so deep inside me
so tad no1 will ever find it..
anyway evry yr on this day i'll be grounded at home too
no parties. no counting down. no going out to orchard rd.no returing home late
nothing.


im just afraid of losing it.

sp
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