haiz...i m jus speechless..numb..in a daze...haiz...jus cried out real loud jus now...haiz...
well todae was jus a nice dae...dad fetched me to skul 4 sum reasons...well...todae had tests so evey1 is like pia...all buried under bks...den got music test...hmm...ms chye was quite lenient[lidat spell?dunno leh]gave me n A athough my plaein was like nt gd...den afta recess got ce den cher's grp actin was gd... den there it was....our tests....tot was maths 1st...but was geo...but was lucki cuz if i had done maths 1st...my geo will fail too...haiz...den geo test...the 1st few qns was qute easy but its like bhind den im like jus crapping all the wae liao....haiz...geo was enuff...im kinda...haiz... but...there cums the maths paper....i saw the 1st qn...1a... n was like totalli stunned...wads this???i dunno how to do...n im like...ok jus skip do the part b n c 1st...den its like ok do liao turn nxt page....again...wads tis???!!n all the qns in no.2...im like dunno how to do...well started kinda panicking....den c qn 3..was like...tis paper i sureli die liao...no.3 oso dunno how to do...den go do graph.....den stupid me nvr c properli reflect anti clockwise...den cannot do part d....den re-draw but its like tad enlargement its like i dunno how to do....n its like 10 more mins...this words said by the examiner made me panick like hell...my hand was like jus literaly shakin all da wae...wad m i suppose to do haiz...mani tots jus raced tru my mind...n i was like my head was suddenli blank canot think...mental block....den its like i go back do other qns but its like i all dunno how to do...i jus cannot think...den 5 minutes more...im jus like goin to cry out liao...but i jus continued to think n do...but i jus cant think of ani solutions to the qns...my mind was jus like brain dead....haiz.........................................den stop writin..........n i handed paper...den i was like totalli stunned n jus appeared to b in a daze wid tears jus swellin frm my eyes n den jus rolled down my cheeks......haiz.....den i jus think...studying n memorisin formula...or even do o levels paper...cant help me....i dont study i fail i study i oso fail...haiz....im jus failin tis paper...den walked hme wid ulrica...saw wen but didnt call her...ulrica was askin y i didnt walk wid her...i was like jus lifted my shoulders...i didnt had ani mood to think abt anithing...i jus wan to reach hme fast.... mum came down to open door 4 me...n saw me in tears she tot i was bullied by ppl...den i told her abt the maths test den she sae nvd bcuz its realli veri hard n she said she understand...cedar is a gd skul n the papers set wil hab certain standard.........well i was like jus jus broke down...n jus cried out loud.....cryin 4 todae plus all the things n troubles i had...i jus cried it out....mumbling everything to her...haiz...den my dog was kinda understand n actualli everytym i cum hme she will jus bark at me call me plae wid her....but todae she jus lie on the floor n look innocentli @ me...i noe she noes im sad....i noe she noes....haiz....den decided to bathe her...den mum help me...perhaps onli the spray of water will make me beta.......sprayin awae my troubles..............................haiz...i realli dun understand how m i goin to make it tru my exams...haiz...i promised to get beta results but now...haiz......im tryin to improve n those tests i did my maths did improve....but now.......speechles........perhaps heaven wasnt on my side.....haiz........................................................................... I JUS REALISED TAD THE ONLI PERSON TAD WILL ALWAEZ B BY UR SIDE IS JUS UR KIN......N NO1 ELSE...NT EVEN THOSE U THINK IS UR BEST BEST BEST BEST FREN..TADS JUS A KINDA NAME.......HATE THIS WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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