hmmm...jus came back frm kovan n finished watchin the match bet. li jia wei n tad korean ger...hmm...haiz... tad match was exciting...me as a singaporean of cuz hoped tad jia wei will win but however lost.....it was quite dissapointing thou...cuz i tot she wld win frm the start...she won 3 games but tad korean ger caught up...she won the nxt 3 games...n there the last 7th game it was like 9-9 on the score board when tad korean ger got 10-9 n den 11-9...n jia wei lost...well tad korean ger was jus far too noisy...she win she shout...she lose she oso shout....its like ppl concentratin lo...den she shout shout like mad woman izzit.... todae @ band..i was like haiz..so tired PT sia...sian..i wld rather hab self sect...haiz...den during break waitin 4 my maggie mee to b cooked..den siru came n ask y im like geng the other sec2s bu he..well i felt abit of tad too...im like drifting awae frm my clar sect..frm thec...well i jus dun understand...dun understand y i jus felt tad they r like leavin me out in anithing...or even hidin things frm me..i jus dun understand..or izzit me bein too sensitive??too sensitive to things...welll..haiz...but its wad i felt these daes...ever since the sec4s go........haiz...its like im like 4ever like at the side??i dunno y i felt tad too...its like durin self sect nowadaes wen n lily is jus sittin together n leavin me @ the side??when walkin hme 1 dae afta band....i was there den when lily said wanted to pass wen the 'file'..den i was there den she sae ltr...i was there n i can sensed it too...wanted to ask but wad ending can i get??jus another nth?or wad?jus felt im bein left outta the section...well...i didnt hab these thinkings when i was in sec1 as recruits...i was like alwaes so happi cumin 4 band...n i think its joyous to cum..but now...i jus felt dread or even..afraid..or wadeva to cum band........haiz....den its like havin a proposal 4 the sec4s...haiz...im left our again?n its like do proposal...m i suppose to do aone...since my so called...the other close section mtes hab alreadi their grps??i jus dun understand...haiz.......when i told ruixian n all abt wad siru said..they said its like where got we nvr we apart...but its tad the truth?????????????????????????????????????hus saein the correct thing????????????????????????i jus dun understand.........haiz.......sumtimes i jus felt like gettin to a corner n cry out loud!!!i jus hate tis...but wad can i do???????i jus dunno........can sum1 help me?a person whom i can realli trust..a person hu will nvr leave me alone aside to cry....i jus dun think i hab ani realli true frens or wad.......haiz.............jus dunno... den afta band went to plae bball wid siying ching hong n yeoung eun...den afta tad siying went hme earli...den me n ching hong went to heartland to buy my bball...my converse leather balll...hehe....n i got it..den its like i told the auntie i want net den she nvr gib me...den afta tad i went back again...well so happi cuz i got a bbal!!!!wahahahha...nxt will be my tamagotchi.....hehe...my pink tamagotchi... hmm...my show start liao..ltr den upload more pics...

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